Over the Summer

[Wrote my first stand up, one night over the summer. Written as if I was at my first open mic night...but what is described is the night I stayed at a hotel and could not get to sleep.]

immensurable

Not too funny quite shity

I paid money to get away

Purchasing more than just a one night stay

Then in what I sought as rest of course - don’t second guess

there was minimal progress

Tragedy came my way

It’s like a bad dream lasting each and every day

The term “Bad dreams” hmm it has a FAMILIAR ring

Due to an omnipresent type of thing

-and I’m not talking about God or am I

This Tragedy a’ bit of reality for me, ya see? 

Look at my history...

Was that really how things were meant to be?

(at age five someone touch me inappropriately then at seven to lose my mommy…)

If you've been given a glimpse into my history or at me you, may see

-but don’t go

That is don’t go so far as to understand

Because fuck it’s obvious that’d be too much, of a demand

Therefore in turn I just do what I can

(doing my best to help and encourage my fellow man)

Wait, what why say “man” versus women…

hey,

- think on that but don’t get side tracked

What I intended to convey

is that I try to help and encourage everyone that comes my way

hmmm I’m side tracked,

… man vs women well ….

What do we say ?

anyway… don’t stray too far away

from the social norm

Because baby it a two edge sword

that tends to make life adorn

however,

Carrying and continuing on as I always do

(Please understand you are the only one that can see yourself through)

So you may breath in and then sigh,

as that you remember or even realize

That that fact is true

So, take a moment, collect, and we’ll be moving on into part II

In the dark we cannot see our own hand

But that doesn't mean it is not there

Oh let us lively up, live without so much thought and care

But why loose this individuality? Why dare

Hm, you seem to have caught me off guard

But don’t think you’ll affect me so hard

So swiftly taken by curiosity about how you've come in to contact with me

Yet I’m drifting in and out of this safe house – some would call insanity

Yes curiosity,

The audacity of you to visit me

Visit me here, wait no tragedy

take a moment and you see

that this is reality

Surprised that I have not yet met my demise

but then I sigh, and realize the need for rest

Yes.

Means to an end as my rest is exhausting –

Because in this release

There is a sense of ease

when my words tease and act as keys

Turning something on by use of words which swiftly sway

finding their way

To create my own get away

Yet there always seems to be clouds in the approaching weather

but “it can’t rain all the time”

and to hear a certain tune, sure ….I’ll give the juke box my dime

(if we were back in that time)                http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jukebox

Cause’ we struggled and strive, thanks hank

But the real dilemma is that we’ll never get out of this world alive

-so insane I may remain

Caught up in the truth of my own thought and passions

Because that’s the only place I’ll pay to stay and feel an immensurable satisfaction

There are others similar to me, so I must not be too far from reality

But see, what constrains or gets me is really the paradox that only few see

Life

Living to die eventually 

it is so great and vastly innumerous -

that it’s capable of swallowing us

WAIT stop, please no tragedy or bad dreams…

We must be bold – too bold to be swallowed hole

So let us step back and see the beauty *in complexity  

Consciously contemplating

that all of this depends on how we - see

really how we,

individually

interpret and perceive

things or situations to be…

I just hope you've enjoyed the money spent tonight and like what you've experienced and seen.

Part III ~ if you’d like to continue with me…

Is it always this hot in hotels?

or is my thought warming and flowing well…?

To tell, you’d have to listen

so don’t let me forget to mention

you may be warmed as well or hell

turn cold as these feelings deep in my heart,

that from time to time somehow tear me apart

anyway, no tragedy – but do contact me

after

because I would love to have a good conversation

Continuing in a cyclical type of engagement

where I understand you and you understand me

and it provides us both with sanity  

-by way of actually connecting with somebody

because hey,

if you didn't feel,

turn the lights on and you’ll see

that you’re holding hands with me…

that is to say

that by listening to what I have shared today

you've already encouraged me to continue seeking the dream of living out my destiny

doing and developing what’s right and soon to be evident to me.

So goodnight to my friends?

And as I end,

I've laid in this empty bed

thankful that I’m not dead

and that something has allowed me to with stand

so again and again I’ll offer you my hand

And

I am at this hotel and checked in,

Not just to rest

But to stop playing pretend

As I mentioned,

I finally intelligently expressed my soul

As I attempted to not check out but check in – to relax and let go

Quickly a summary,

Hmm, I’m kinda nervous you see

because this is a first time thing for me,

well you've not seen but you've heard

and I’d say don’t become perturbed

just stay with me.

Because last night I was blessed with restlessness 

And created this peace/PIECE … (used interchangeably)

Because totally – this has resulted in rest for me

Really an ease for my mind _ this is too often hard to find….

So I thank you all for your time.