Don't go I still love you SO

I don't feel good but who is going to save me? 

I need to let present moments exist and the past simply be 

I don't know how to live freely 

People have told me I write elegantly but that's grace ya see!?!?!

Not me...

How could you understand this perplexity

Take what you want and ignore what you can't live by 

That's the way of any Christian in my eyes 

but I don't know 

Because I haven't had the willingness to grow 

Because there's a constant show 

or replay in my head 

(Creating an imaginary reality)

Of the reasons why I wish I was dead

Say, ... 

why was he mislead 

And she gone astray 

My mom lost her way

Eons before I came a long 

So there wasn't room for my own song

I'm singing melodies of what I should be 

Based on the insecurities 

That have compiled to cover up ME

...Mad mad mad

...Sad sad sad

I still love you so, I can't let you go

I love you ehw baby I love you 

[-led Zeppelin]

Don't go 

But the terror is so real 

It takes away my ability to feel 

My guilt... it is somehow able to surpass 

Any connection that "seems" to last

Because my memories relapse

Life isn't simple, so I cannot grasp 

Anything other than being better than all that was done to me 

Woa woa, there's a lack of simplicity 

My lips are chapped 

Asking for water but the source is not tapped 

...Mad mad mad

...Sad sad sad

I still love you so, I can't let you go

I love you ehw baby I love you

[-led Zeppelin]

Don't go 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XkKXb2m-GA8

choices of Casey

Casey, and Everyone
watch the choices that you make
the advice that you take
and the Being that you forsake

Whomever,
it's okay to take care
but not share
in another persons despair
especially if they are not going anywhere

Whomever,
yet when there's too much weight to bare
you can't send their soul off for repair

Casey
yet when there's too much weight to bare
We can't send your soul off for repair

Whomever,
that person must declare
that his/her life wasn't fair
and their current situation's a nightmare
hopeful that they'll come up for some air
being so sickened of swirling and swimming
in a whirlpool where their future is dimming
no we're not condemning
just wishing that they would start living!
and take responsibility
and begin to act sensibly


Casey,
you must declare
that something you experienced wasn't fair
and your current situation's a nightmare
and please just come up for some air
tell us that you're suffering and swimm'n
locked in a cage and your future's just'a dimm'n
understand that we're not preventing nor condemning
just wanting you to have a reason for living!
and use Honesty and support to take responsibility
and let us all start living sensibly

Casey,
but know that whomever does care - I love you Casey.

an

an E-z
easy
start
torn a p a r t
from go there is no start

Fake Everything

The world is so fake
how much can we bend before we remake
you thought that I would say break
haha your mistake
just like every other thought
its fear that you'll be caught
exposed for some kind of fraud
Who or what is really God
Everything

Self love

What I want isn't what I need 

I have this itch that I just can't reach 

My desires are never at ease 

My life is supposed to preach 

Save, show, and grow are enemies but Strategies 

To each of the goals that I can achieve

But doubt is inability to believe

Worries have me on my knees

Who or what am I trying to please

Help, help, help, me to get my mind at peace 

My structure is wavering 

I'm wondering if you've ever seen 

Who would be any more deserving 

Of loving my own being!

unknown

disbeliefe

We're scared of those things

for a reason because with certainty 

there's the the reality that we'd have to receive things completely in their there entirety

Creativity pour out of me with a fiery furry 

As you see it's blurry

8/2?/15

Rhyme scheme didn't mean to demean 

But what's really between the unkown and the seen

Mom, what the fuck...where are you

Feeling like I'm the rebirth of you

But there's no sign coming through

Is this real or really dumb 

Can't base emotions off being numb 

Hate harsh

Ya'lls hate is harsh

But maybe it's from all the scars on ya heart

But don't let that pain tear ya apart 

Create a new start

Don't let past project to your current reflection

Cause greatness is what your rejecting 

7-26-15

Dropping this 

Loose the emotionalness

See past the bullshit

Getting to the heart of it 

Keep an open mind regardless 

Avoid tripping into nothingness

Remain selfless 

Space loosing my face

Stress and disgrace 

Taking a place

Keep imagination up to my pace

Negativity

Surrounding me, there's so much energy

And not enough leaving me

My souls is reflecting and I feel empty

Box

Sucks when people put you in that little box

The one jammed shut, uncertain if it will lock

The bindings nearly fell away 

Yet purpose has hasn't went astray. 

It's structure is so captivating 

It holds energy but clarity is evading 

True feelings ever fading 

Inspiration... JJ and I lacking  in communication. 

Motions

Fuck going through the motions

I want to own the flow of the oceans

Rugged an rough, similar to emotions 

Constant cycles of purpose

But intuitions have me too nervous

Swim under and let it flow over 

Vent-too-late

ventilate as I dissipate, and seek to erase and rearrange fate 
but shit I'm already late... 
It's myself I need to vindicate
but why,why is the world lacking 
why are some slacking 
yet Rest is essential 
growth is monumental 
why then do I cause others pain 
swimming in a pool of the mundane
with regret of things that haven't happen yet
puff away on another cigarette
my problems I don't want to unveil 
I don't need my hand to be held
these are the cards that I've been dealt
who would be one that has ever felt
the love of loss and the sway of going astray
Seeing beauty it's almost unreal 
it seems there is something that I can't fulfill 
Not enough energy put into being still 
there's trouble understanding what appears to be real 
Not sure what I'm looking at -staring in the mirror
How do you make reality any clearer
keep it bright because you just might be promised another day
So don't let yourself get in the way

Real fear

If you don't feel how will you know anything as real... 

Do you have to be scared?

Did fear begin to steer? 

What makes your purpose clear?

Where has your soul been taken? 

as a reality - you are mistaken...

Are you just terrified of change...

claim you

It's beautiful when one claims you
It's painful when one shames you
It's freeing when one loves you
It's unbelieving when one hates you

It's amazing when you realize you're the only one... who should affect you.
However, it's beneficial to feel those around you with out owning their perspectives.

New Life

let me be

untitled

Write, write, with all of my soul all of my might
despite
please, pain, sacrifices or human gainz
stories still remain
you're the frame
a target is where you should aim
where will you soil the seed of blame
realize there always dirt, it'll dirty just the same
This isn't all a game
but a play and you choose the stage
although the play has been written
and by human wrong, you've been bitten

Look up, look above and see the setting
keep on remembering but forgetting
your lines so play by passion
not innate human reactions

Eternity 1.26.15

Eternity ever seen
(calling as I'm falling, hurry as I worry)
Seem to be unseen,
Life is all but a dream
night mare if lived with out a care
what is there to share,
what's grounds for any compare